Monday, June 22, 2015

last night's dream

Have you ever dream of someone?
and its not just a ordinary dream

I know that most of the boys dream about a pretty girl, then do something romanticaly and maybe some of them are on dating.

but have you ever dream of something that looks like a cut scene ?
I mean its like in tv soap opera or Tv drama. Where the scene goes black out and then the next morning they are already do their work.

I got some Wierd dream, its not completely wierd thou..

but the older you are, the rare you get to have dream. Thats what I feels now.
I rarely got any dreams.
but this time, I dream of cuddling with a girl I know. In the real life I know her but we're far from each other, and we often chat with each other. Let's say, her inital is J. After that scene, I felt her smooth cheek, and lips. Then my vision went blank.
In the next morning, I found out my self in my home, and walking unconciously out to see some one. I saw "J" sitting infront of my house's fence near the door and facing out to the road.
Then my Passed away grandpa come home and "J" greeted him with smile and then she saw me. I looked her with full of question, but she just smile brightly and then left my home. I saw her smile, and how she looks. She wear Blue shirt with flower pattern, Skinny navy blue jeans and she looks older than in the real life( she's younger than me in real life )
then I saw my grandpa smiling and brought some grocery from nearest supermarket. And I help him and escort him to inside.

right after I put the grocery. I woke up and feels my heart beat so fast. And I keep thinking about "J" and it feels like I became More interested with her. But it just feels wierd. I cant think straight after that dream. Then  I unconciously send "Good morning "to her in the real life..

Dear diary, Is it a sign or what?A sign that I 'll fall in love with her, or maybe just a nonsense dream. Or what?. I just cant figure it out

Friday, June 19, 2015

A Piece of my Thought

What's sup Diary!
Today I've got feeling to write my life stories in here.

Althou its nothing, but just listen and keep it in here.

well, It's actually about my exam. I went throu these college life with alot of hardship.
I don't know how to explain it in words, but there's one thing that's always in my mind.

"I Miss my Family"

Everything that i went throu, from the unknown social life to my love life. I've always think of my family. I feels like I need a spirit to live on, someone who's there for me to think so I can went through all of these without even meet them.

I can't say that the social life in Jakarta is hard, because alot of people around me are supporting me. What I mean is, friendship. Some people here are just "Too Nice" and some people here are just as rock head (*Someone that's hard to communicate with) and some of them are just... typically "Unique"  in my mind.

But behind these all friendship things. I just can't believe in them. It's not that I hate to believe them or don't wanna believe them. But I just hard to open my feelings to them, hard to accept them, and I can't believe in my self too...
and..
"Trust is some thing that's hard to get, and easy to lose it"

I know many of you may think "You just have to open your feelings and accept them" . But this is not as simple as it was writen. Even in some of the frienship with girls, I find my self hard to decide which one is the one I keep as friend and which one is the one that i love as partner. Maybe its because I cant trust my self. Why you ask? Its because I'm afraid that if I get a wrong move, another will get dissapointed and the other will get me wrong and make a distance between us. Therefore I decided,

"Confusion is normal, it's a sign that you're growing from the inside of yours"

Thats all, Diary. Thanks for listening my absurd feelings that I don't wanted anyone know, because its too deep and too hard to understand what I think.



Monday, June 8, 2015

Countdown to 7 july 2015

You guys must be thinking "What's so special on 7 july ?"

well its nothing special thou ._.
Nor the birthday of a person i know...
and no big event to thou .-.

but I'M COMING BACK TO MY HOMETOWN!!! YIHAAAWW!
I'm gonna ride my car,
I'm gonna meet my highschool friends
I'm gonna eat breakfast together with mah family
I'm gonna have a picnic with my close friends
I'm gonna play games with mah bro
I'm gonna work for mah dad
I'm gonna cook with my mom
I'm gonna play badminton as much as I like:3
I'm gonna go and play with my little cute adoreable cousins :3 especially Kyrene xD

(So this is kyrene)



















기업지!!!! Cute right?!!! ;3

she's about 6 month old now
Can't wait to see them, My family, my friends and Someone ( AWWW):3


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30 days left